The past 2 days were Great! Have a mini random outing with Huixian & Veronica & Benjamin. Steamboat @ amk for dinner. Ben went home after that. (U missed out on alot of fun!)

So we went to Timbre @ dhoby G but was closed. Anyway thks to veron, now i know of a nice place to chill out. Quite isolated from the public view somewhere deep in the estate. The next thing that came to out mind >>>marina barrage. Chilled out abt an hour. The place was wonderful, windy. Love it!

Then the rain came, meanwhile HX gt the urge to see ah gua. Lmao! So i drove all the way to Changi Village. Before that, we stopped at the side of the runway to admire the planes. Haha. And i went to challenge a Boeing 747. Managed to lead for the first 5 to 10 secs before it left me chasing air. Was so high at that point of time! Hitting the climax for the night. (FYI planes taxi ard 30 to 40 km/h)

At CV, the transvestite was so gorgeous, alluring, amazing, mesmorising! I know it maybe an insult to some girls but anyway we humans love beautiful things. S o we circled round & round like an eagle desperately hunting for its prey. And there were many cars there as well!

Next destination>>>Geylang! Here you will find the real goods. Lol. Did a quick drive ard and home sweet home.

Today went to watch bodyguard & assassins. Nice!

I have a friend. He is funny. He is a joke. He is fun to be with. He made our day!

Finally, managed to set up my trading a/c ytd. Hopefully, can start trading in the new year. Watched Zombieland with Ben Heng @ amk hub. The movie was insanely hilarious. 5 stars!

Evening jog @ yck stadium. No motivation at all. (Motivation = blazing sun + timer) Once I feel the heat, I can run real fast. In the previous 2.4 km run, successfully clocked 10.20min. 5 points for me! (: Next target is to go <9.30min!

But right knee cap starting to make weird noises. Time out for now.

During the early hours of 8th dec, my house was 'robbed'. Not sure who did it, but I believed it must be some professional burglars. They didnt enter the house because they most probably knew we have the alarm system activated.

My Uncle was down right unlucky. He locked his car all the time. But on tt day, he forgot. Lost his cashcard and some coins. My Japanese neighbour was worst off. They literally got their house ransacked. They somehow thought that Singapore was 'really safe and secure'. I think they have been watcing too much propaganda videos about Singapore.

The policemen went around asking for visual evidence or simply put 'cctv'. None of us have. So right now, in order to crack the case, they need physical evidence like finger prints etc. Come on, do you think the burglars are that stupid and noob? The thing that spooked me was knowing the fact that my neighbour have 2 german sheperds. And somehow in the name of God, their house was robbed. Useless dogs! Must be busy humping one another at tt time.

Anyway, the police force have let us down. Try recalling one advertisment where they proudly state tt cos of them, we can sleep soundly at night. You sure?! They can stop talking cock and start solving the case.

Went for NS medical screening at CMPB building @ Depot Rd. Together with Ben Yong, we spent about 4 hrs plus for the screening and quizes.

The screening was fast and efficient. NS style: Read instructions and follow orders! Did the ECG (normal heartbeat). X-ray scan, dental check, urine sampling, sight (suffer from colour deficiency) and hearing test. The best part, 'blood donation'. The government sucked 2 test tubes worth of blood from me! Blood Sucker! Saw a guy fainted due to loss of massive blood. Lmao, at the same time sympathise him.

Not so best part, entered a consultation room just to show an army officer my b****. F***ing stupid shit. I dont see the point of that. I think they should abolish that procedure. Waited for almost half an hour just for that crap.

Body was in perfect condition. Attained pes B L1 (fit for most operational vocations)
Ben tio pes D cos of some blood disorder but should be alright. Not so serious i guess hopefully pes B for him.

The quiz = difficult, challenging, draining, exhausting, boring. Yea, that's all.

Soon, I'll be laying my life down for Singapore.

My old friend Sanso came to Singapore last wed for a short break. He's having his term break now at Melbourne Monash University. So he planned to visit us along with his family members.

On friday night, we (sec friends) organised a steamboat session at Bugis. As usual, we enjoyed ourselves. After eating, the 10 of us took cab down to Boat Quay for a couple of drinks. (not really, we ordered 2 bottles of hard liqour appx 35%/acl) Played a game called 'Dice' where losers down glass of liqour with mixer. Didnt really play. (drink too much bad for health) Instead found myself watching some football replay matches. But managed to finish 2 glasses (quite satisfied) Then all of us went home like a dead log.

Luckily, there was no hangover the next morning. All my sec sch friends seemed busy suddenly, so I took Sanso out in my car. (wanted to stay @ home but I must entertain my guest) We became nostalgia out of the blue so we thought of visiting out sec sch. (we arrived a little too late) School closed. So we went to Junction 8. (been there for 10mins and we left) Crazy!?!

Guess where we went next? Haha.

Not sure whether to call retard or insane but I drove all the way to SP just to show him around. We did many sharings and comparisons. Took our time to stroll around and we came upon a taekwando tournament at Sport Hall. (both of us have Taekwando background) and we came to a conclusion. Dont ever learn Tkd, its useless (only uses your F***** legs). Instead, Judo would be a more effective form of self defense.

After spending the whole afternoon out, I send him back to his hotel. (he got wedding dinner to attend) And he will be flying to Medan this Sunday morning. (his home town) So I guess I'll see him next year ard March. Till then, take care bro! Haha.

I'm driving around in my car. I'm driving too fast. I'm driving too far.
And I wonder.

After Law tutotrial, we went to town. Switched car with Hewett for first time. At first we were so high, blasting music at max volume, at the same time cork and joke! Then i thought of overtaking hewett, end up losing sight of him due to some unforseen circumstances. (dont wish to elaborate) Next thing i did was to floor the accelerator to catch up, but failed.

Bryan came into picture, instead of turning left he told me to go straight. GG GL HF. Lost! Haha. Finally found our way to orchard but where the hell is Hereen?! Then we saw ERP, all hum like shit! Desperate to do a U-Turn but luckily we did not. At last found Hewett n Co thks to Ben (he made a crucial decision).

After parking our car, we went to Mac. Left my lunch box in car, F***! End up eating fish burger and cup corn. After meal, we played a number guessing game (there is a name for it in mandarin) where loser must eat remains of leftover mix together. I kana 3 times, FML. Then YL say it tastes like Indian puke because of the curry sauce. (racist sia)

Walked around before we went back to sch. Before that, Lionel and Ben try to be funny with me in the toilet, especially Ben. (he drooled while peeping at me!) Haha, kidding. Wanted to let Bryan drive my car but bcos of rain, lionel took over. (Bryan ur chance will come)

After sch, drove Bryan n Reen to bus stop. Kana honked by cab. (my fault saw tt F****** cab but thought can beat him to it) Managed to overtake Sean car for first time (steam sia) cos he stop at traffic light and I took the bus lane. (I cheated) Oh ya, I was driving Jocelyn to yck mrt. Then we were speculating that Sean will give chase. And, he zoomed past us in a flash. (fast like a bird) Next moment, we werel laughing our asses off in the car.

Hi there! I'm back! Time flies like a bird. All of a sudden got the urge to blog again.

Not many things happened during the last 5 months. But I'm heading into a new direction. First, I passed my driving test and Dad got me a car! Not mine actually, share between Mum (she dont drive often) and elder bro (he's still learning to drive). Yea, the car is practically mine at the moment! Haha!

Second, I came up with a 'eat healthy' regime. Even though everyone thinks that I'm just 'nice', beneath those clothing, there lies a thin layer of fat. Besides that, it's all about being healthy and fit.

Ok, here how it goes! For breakfast I'll have either cereals or yogurt. (I dont take breakfast in the past, which is bad!) Lunch will be 2 slices of wholemeal bread with jam (no preservatives) or cheese (low-fat) + freshly made fruits juice. For dinner I'll load up on the veggies and proteins.

If you think that is bad, the worse is yet to come. On top of that, 4 to 5 days will be set aside to do stamina run or swim + stomach crunches. In one month time, the new me will emerged. Healthier and fitter. Haha! I'm feeling so motivated.

Third, I'm looking into increase my passive income by investing in stocks. It may sounds crazy but it's time for a change.

That's all for now, I'll be back with great news! Hopefully.

Hey guys, I got something to share with you all. I fucking lost my Bruan Buffel wallet. Which idiot on earth will leave his wallet on the bus and walked away? Yea me! Fucking idiot!

I think i should get a car to prevent this incident from happening again. But i'm feeling high now cos it's like a fifty fifty chance that i will ever get to see my wallet again. Maybe it's time for me to change those photos in my cards, get some newer and good looking ones.

Ok, time to finish my report. Damn! I am feeling sad now, I think i will miss my black buffalo.

Yes, We Can! And We did it for the third successive seasons. Here we come, Rome!

Manchester United 18th titles, and now we'll go for 19.

Look at this! You bunch of Scousers! What were you guys thinking when you trashed us 4-1?!

We love this boy, Hopefully he will be in this shirt next season.

Park Ji-Sung, Pride of Asians.

Sir Alex Ferguson, The Boss. Without him, no one would have heard of Manchester United. Who the hell is D.Beckham or C.Ronaldo? He resemble LKY of Singapore. I'm just praying that the Glazer family would give him a position as Manager Mentor after his retirement.

Glory Glory ManUtd!

Time flies, sch was slack and fun. It's great to see many new faces. But I still missed the old faces, especially one. Now and then, I will sms my colleagues to see how are they coping without me. Mostly frivolous, Haha.

Will I miss them? Maybe, Maybe not.

Lately, I have been thinking of going to Redang, a lovely place to dive.

Still contemplating whether to go alone. I am used to travel alone and it's fun.

Btw, I get to know of a girl from one of my classes. Spoken to her, I think she's sweet and nice to hang out with. And the best part, she's a diver too. If it's possible, I would love to invite her, maybe she would agree. Just me and her alone. Wtf?! What am I thinking?! Haha.

Next, we can travel on my G5, resting at Seletar Airport.

Cool huh?! Girl, we'r flying on the G5 G5, and we'r leaving, never looking back again.

I wrote a frivolous entry out of boredom, but everything is possible. If there's a Will, there will be a Way. Haha.

Hi folks! 4 more weeks to go before the end of our attachment programme. Hopefully all of you are having a great time.

I'm truly satisfised with all the things i had done and contributed so far. No offence, compared to most of my friends, the tasks that were assigned to me was so much 'challenging'. Due to confidentiality, i can't disclosed those information. Sometimes i felt so fucked-up, the things they ordered me to complete was so ridiculous that i can't even imagined.

At the end of the day, i believed it's part of work.

But i'm thankful in some ways. They provided me with the platform to engage managers and operation executives from different organisations. Gave me a rare opportunity to pay a visit to CEVA logistics DC, a US based firm. One of the top 5 players in this fast moving supply chain logistics industry.

Work aside, i'm blessed with fun-loving colleagues. At times, i must learn to reply in a 'politically correct answer'.

Wrapping up, i hope to equip myself with all the experiences and knowledges before moving on.

I have already walked one fourth of my life on this earth. Looking back, I felt life has been quite good to me except for some misery that happened lately. Otherwise, it's perfectly alright.

As a child, no worries, no responsibilities. As a teenager, increased responsibilities but just continue to play and fool around. As an adult, we must account for our words and actions.

Actually, I am afraid of growing old but I know this is part of life. Inevitably, I will grow old and die one day. Once old, there are many limitations to life and I hate it. I want to run, swim, dive, sleep for three hours and still be fine. And I understand it will not last long.

Talking about life, tml will be my 'first day of work'. How am I feeling right now? Feeling ok, a little anxious but not looking forward to it. Why? It's simple, I am still fond of aerospace. When you love something so deeply before, it's hard to let go. It's been almost two years and still could not get over it.

I am still confuse about my career and what am I going to do in the future. To lessen my heartache, I promise myself to work for aerospace companies dealing with logistic.

Enough said, to all my 'handsome' and 'pretty' friends enjoy your ITP while you can. At least for now, we are the youths from SP.

They treated me so kind, I don't know what to do.

Yes, exams are finally over! Went to Orchard Sakura for class outing cum dinner. Celebrated my birthday with classmates. Wonderful! At the same time, got to know all their dirty little secrets. Terrible!

Chilled out at Clark Quay after dinner, almost fuck myself up by getting drunk. Spent time debating on relationship, sex and all of our screwed up life.

But the most important conclusion we came to after the whole conversation, "This is life, just accept it".

Did my second driving lesson today. Steady as she goes, until a female motorcyclist trainee came ramming into my left side. Resulted in a damaged side mirror. No major injuries sustained by both parties.

Due to good performances in changing of gears and braking smoothly, instructor took me to main road to have fun. Managed to hit gear 3. Truly satisfied.

He scored the winning goal!

And he's out.

But he will be back!

Went to Clark Quay to have a drink with two heartbroken guys who got ditched by their fucking girlfriends. All Bob and I could do was to listen to their sorrows and watched them finished bottles of alcohol. They were choking on their tears when they spoke, almost on the verge of crying. Poor souls, hope they are doing fine.

I heard the stories, even an idiot knows who's right. Hope those bitches can fuck themselves off from this world.

My bro is sick of his life. He is tired of all those retarded trainings at SAFTI. He kept whining to me about all those shits he have to go through. He said he do not have the right mentality and attitude at this point of time to proceed with his officer course. How he wished he was just a normal soldier who serve from 8 to 5 daily.

I hope he have the strength to pull through.

What can we expect from 2009? Nothing. Nothing promising to cheer for. Another gloomy year ahead. What Happy New Year?! My foot. It's always the same. Always been deceive by the hope at the start of year. Comes JUNE, all of us will then realize the shit that we are going through. And pray for the start of a new year.

Terrorism, Global warming, Recession crisis. You name it, we have it. Sad huh?

At times, I ask myself what can I do to help. Other than using less toilet rolls when shiting, nothing. It's miserable to think that how insignificant one could be. Nothing will change in the foreseeable future unless another Ghandi decided to spread love and peace. Nothing will change unless another Qin Shihuang decided to step out to reunite the world. And nothing will change if all those mother fuckers goverment continued to practise the policy of NATO. (no action talk only)

Till that day arrived, I will continue to use less toilet rolls so as to fulfil my role as a citizen of the World.

Ben and Kay went to visit XZ today. Earlier on, we went to get LJS but end up getting some breakfast set due to some unforseen assholes. Ben dad drove us down to Mandai.

Saw XZ for the 1st time after half a year. Still look the same, handsome as ever. No tears this time round. Ben spoke to him in mandarin and Kay spoke to him in english. Update him with all the shit that happened since that day. Rest well my fren.

Went to town to look at flowers. Bumped into Sean & co. god knows how many times. Met up with Bryan and Hewett. Walked around like lost souls end up drinking coffee talking cock. Went home like a dead piece of dung.

It's tiring looking at those pretty sluts. Bye ladies.

Sometimes it's funny to see how dumb one could get. No offence, but i find it stupid and ridiculous for someone to cry and honour a man who was nailed to death. Countless of kids were nailed to death everyday. And all they could do is to pray to a dead man. Bunch of fools. Want to know the stupidest theory ever?

They said that the man sacrificed his pathetic life so that we baggars could come and live in this world happily ever after. So now they must thank him like idiots. Assholes! I am where i am today because 18 yrs ago, my dad sperm met my mum egg. Fuck it!

And the more they tried to preach to me, the more i think of them as some retards who can't differentiate between logic and their 'fantasy'. Try jumping 30th storey off a buiding to see whether he could save you, i tihink by then your guts will be lying all over the place.

I think i having period. Fuck it!

Ok lets get this straight, ManUtd rulez! Those Gunners and Scousers dont laugh. You haven been to Old Trafford yet! Haha.

MST was easy, hopefully only A's and B's. And yes! I passed my BTT. It will be a disgraced if i failed. The questions is designed to see whether you have common sense. Even Syakir managed to pass! I cant imangined what would happen to me if i didnt made it. Haha. Aiming to get my license within 6 months, by then my PDL would have expired.

Oh ya. I have a confession to make. I kinda like bangalas. They are a bunch of funny and cute people. They add colours to our society and lives. Keep it up man! If i could speak their langauge, i would buy them curry rice and have a nice chat with them. Haha. I am Seriously Serious.

Btw, our FM tutor committed suicide. Stupid huh?! I hate the way he speaks. His indian accent strong like hell. During his tutorial, feels like i am studying in a university in India. But i like him as a person. A really nice man. I really cant figure out why ppl would end their lives. I hoped that his wife and 2 year old daughter will have the strenght to carry on.

I think it is time for ben and i to visit XZ soon, maybe next week. Probably getting him LJS, his favourite food. Till then, plz watch your steps when walking.

OK, let's get this straight.
Manchester United gonna beat Arsenal hands down.
Rooney, Ronaldo and Berbatov gonna score.
Gallas will cry again if he is playing.
And Wenger gonna whine after the match.

History was made last night. Liverpool beat Chelsea. Finally, a team managed to step out and end Chelsea 86 unbeaten home run. Besides that, Liverpool look like a team beaming with confidence, ready to challenge for the trophy after 19 years. Its too early to say anything right now, it may turn out to be a flop.

Time will tell, wait and see.

Winner?

Loser?

U decide.

I have a friend in Macau. And today is his 18th birthday, but i cant celebrate with him. The most i can do is to wish him all the best. He have been a good friend of mine since primary 5 and he came from HongKong. The irony was that, I was not his friend initially. We hated each other. Then something special happened. I cant really recalled.

It turned out that we managed to remain in contact during our secondary school years. And over the years, we got to know each other better. When we were young, we dont treasure our friends. But when we got matured, we understand the importance of friendships and relationships. I am just pleased to meet him.

I remembered clearly, after our 'O's, we used to go out frequently. To the extent of boredom and sickness. Sometimes we take things for granted. At the end of day, all we did was regret.

When I chat with him on skype, I will not mention 'see you soon'. Because in reality, I seriously don't know when will I get to see him. Maybe years down the road when he plan to visit me. Till then, I hope we can continue to be friends.

My female cousin drove me home ytd. A few years older than me, smaller size compared to me and she was already driving. Bth already, next weekend confirm sign up for driving!

And i am getting myself some dive equipments. Mask, dry suit, fins etc. Considering going pro. Gotten quite a few dive caps to my name.

Oh ya, i managed to start doing my tutorials which is a good sign. Must maintain my form and improve my gpa.

I will Survive!

I think i have fully recovered, that's good. But everytime i see my friends, they will ask me.' Why so black?' Then i will replied ' Oh cos i went diving' . I have lost count on how many times i said that. Felt irritated and sicked of it. Maybe they were asking out of curiosity and concern. If this the case than it's ok, other than that, i have nothing to say.

After doing some reflections, i came to a conclusion. If Xz were to go Tioman, he will understand that life is actually very simple. People in there have no worries. Everytime i see them, they were either laughing or smiling. Whereas in here, life is stressful. There is no need to further complicate it. Bacsically all the stress arises from all the high expectations given to us by ourselves.

The second night, some guys head to the pub to chill out. I don't think it is a place for me. I can't drink, i sux at it. Instead of wasting my time, i chose to do something more thrilling. I managed to hook up with another guy and we did a walk around the island. It was amazing. I got to appreciate the quiet side of life. I think sometimes in our journey, we need that kind of time-out.
If Xz were to experience that, i think i will still be able to see him in school tml.

Up till now, i still feel sorry for Xz. After his death, i blamed almost everyone for not giving him a chance. But blaming do not solve problems. Instead, he should give all of us a chance to help him. Anyway, what over is over.

I am Sorry, it's All that i can Say.

Wow! Truly satisfied with this trip. Excellent dives, met bunch of new friends. Especially the 4 NS boys. Haha. Quite ok with the accomodation, except for some insects flying around aimlessly. The food is edible. Perfect, I love it.

However, suffered burnt and side effects of staying under depth for too long. Don't worry, will recover soon.

There was a funny incident that i want to mention. During our second last dive, I saw a human faeces floating on the surface. At that point of time, we inflated our BCD to stay afloat before we made our descend. Then there is one joker, so blur that he drifted so close to the faeces even though we warned him about it. Guess what? He swallowed a small piece of that shit. lol. All I can say to make him feel better is to tell him that I understand all the SHIT that he been through. Ok, enough of my shit. Time for pictures

It's my Life.

Rain at my resortHeaven on Earth
Part of Tioman marine park

Mission Accomplished!

Leaving for Malaysia Pulau Tioman to dive this weekend. wohoo! Feeling excited, get to meet new friends. But somewhere deep inside me, feeling a little sad and lost. Why? Cos XingZong not joining me. He maybe resting at some quiet and peaceful place. We did a dive last april at Pulau Aur, his virgin dive at a beautiful island. It was an unforgettable experience.

But weeks ago, he chose a path where there is no turning back. Gone. We made a pact to dive this time, but it will never happen. Anyway 'what over is over, die die la' his favourite quote. I will accomplish his dream at the same time truly enjoy myself. See you guys soon!

Ah la la la la la la Life is Wonderful.

Under the deck
On the deck

Let's have some sympathy for Ferrari and Massa. Biggest losers of the day. I not an F1 fan but lately i have been attracted by all the buzz and excitement. Quite exciting though, with cars zooming at top speed. Anyway who expect Alonso to walk away as a winner? Placed at 15th position, he planned to just do the laps. 1 lucky bastard. When all the shits happened, he managed to be a few cars behind the safety car and i knew he gonna win it. Look at all the drivers in front of him. None of them as experienced or skilled. I think F1 should look into that dubious rule. At least all cars should return to starting line according to their positions at the moment. Just imangined you are leading the pack with confidence. Everything going smoothly and you are gonna win it easily. Then this 'shit' happened. Found yourself chasing the pack now. Then your team of proffesional mechanics screwed up a simple process of refuelling. Then, you are slapped with a 10 sec drive through penalty. If i am that guy, i will stop my car and take a seat at the grand stand. Pissed with anger and frustration. But what did Massa do? He continued his race with grace and a heart of a big man. I think so. I truly admired his anger managment and calmness. He was waiting patiently for a few mechanics to chase up to remove the fuel hose. When they arrived he didnt even shout or made a fuss out of it. During the post match interview, he said "These things happens, we are all human beings, I dont blame anyone." He just dont have the right amount of luck that day. But in the end, he lost with great sportmanship. All the way, Ferrari Massa.

I have an elder bro. I think older than me by 2 to 3 years. When he was younger, very playful n mischeivious. CMI in primary school, results like shit almost got into em3. Every year last in class. Then PSLE expected la NA lor. Heng sia almost NT. Went to YCK sec, results still bad like machiam shit. Parents worried, But things changed when he studied for N-level. Suddenly so motivated to do well, scored well n moved on to sec 5. But all this while i m not worried and didnt even despise him. Maybe i cant even be bothered or inside me i have faith in him that he will eventually make it. Scrapped through his olevel got into some enviromental course in np. Did exceptionally well, won many awards. At this point of time he is a completely changed person. Right now serving NS at OCS (Officer Cadet School) 9months time become a commisioned officer in the army. Looking back he seemed like going no where, now his future looks so promising. Bless with great leadership qualities and an athlete body, i believe he can go far in life if he continue to strive hard.

49th Day

Ben & i went to the crematorium in Bishan today. Time to pray for XingZong. But not many ppl turned out compared to tt time. Just ard 10 of us. We met his brother at 830. We entered into the hall where all the photos were stored. Retrived XZ's photo and the monk brought us into a room. We started the prayer. Throughout the whole process, i jus stared into the photo. I cant really figured out what went through my mind. Numb & empty. Pieces of memeories jus flashes here n there. But i am jus thankful for all the times i spent with him. I dont believe in after-life. But in XZ's case, i kept wondering what is he doing now, at this moment. Stupid rite? Will he continue his life as who is he right now but in a different world. Have the same look and same personalities, etc. Or jus empty, like the time before each of us were borned.

After the prayer, the monk brought us back to the hall where we burned his photo to ashes. Why? I also not sure. But tears ran down almost on everyone cheeks, especially Ben's. I didnt cried. I think i m immune to the sorrow and sadness. Next, we went to burn joss papers n etc. I saw the t-shirt where all his friends wrote blessings for him. I received a pink packet from one of his uncle. Spend the money inside to forget him and move on. I plan to throw it when i went for diving this dec. We made a pact n i think he will be waiting for me to dive with him again.

Looking Back

Its been a long time since i wrote my last entry. I cant figured out why too. But over the years many things happened. I lost a good friend and made many new frens. I jus want to thank all my frens who hav been helping me all this while. I am writing again to rmb happy memories & reflect on sad experiences. I hope i can continue. This blog goes out to my late fren and best fren.